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choc_lammington
02 November 2011 @ 11:01 pm

I think in falling too hard, too fast.

 


I now miss him when he's not here and I only saw him this morning.

 

We're not at that point where I can tell him that yet. So I express myself here, in hope that it will eleaviate (sp?) this rediculous yearning I have to have him by my side.... *sigh*

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choc_lammington
Good Lord I am just so freakin' happy right about now as a YES the date went really well. Best of all we want to see each other again :-) I'm one very happy girl!
 
 
Current Location: Nairne, South Australia
Current Mood: ecstaticecstatic
Current Music: Take me to a higher place- Kate Nash
 
 
 
choc_lammington
20 October 2011 @ 12:05 pm
So I know my visits to LJ lately have been few and far between. Two reasons. 1. I only have LJ on my phone and it's sooo fiddley and rediculous to try and use and 2. my internets life has been pretty dull.

The last few posts have been random, talking about the fact that I was "introduced" to a friends brother-in-law on monday night and have now got myself somehow 'hanging out' with him tonight.

Can I just say I'm shitting myself?

This guy is top stuff, totally quality and I have no idea whatsoever WHAT he see's in me. I'm almost convinced that after tonight I'll never hear from him again, but that beings said, I hope to god I do.

He's tall, got gorgeous green eyes and dark curly hair.

Anyway, so monday night his sister in law, who is a friend of mine, asked me over for dinner (a few weeks before, she had mentioned introducing me to Tom, but I flat out refused to be set up with anyone). I was suposed to catch up with our mutual friend, Mel, that night for a few drinks, but Felicity invited us both over to her palce instead.

So Mel and I rock up for dinner, and pretty much as soon as we enter, Flick says, "Oh Jon (her husband) and Tom needed to swap cars tonight, so I've asked Tom to stay for dinner."

I could have killed her. If looks could have killed, she would be truly dead.

Anyway, so Tom ended up coming over for dinner and I will admit he was really nice, extremely friendly and yeah, tall, dark and handsome.

The night went really well, I even stayed there until 1am even though I had to get up at 5am in order to go to work.

The next day, I added him as a friend on facebook and sent him a pm, telling him it was cool meeting him etc and we should all hang out again soon and that I'd see him around maybe.

His reply was "Hey you Stace, would love to catch up again soon I hope! Was fun hit me up when your ready!"

So I wait, and believe, it was hard to do so; at least 24hours before I send him my number and tell him to give me a call or text when he wants to hang out or do something etc, He then returns the favor and gives me his number.

I text and say "hey i remember you're going bush for the weekend, have a great time, I'll see him round."

He then proceeds to ask me to hang out with him tonight.

His words were:

"Yeah sort of had one of those days where it all seems to go wrong! I am heading bush on friday. What are you up to thursday night. Would you like to hang out for a little bit. I'm going to the city in my ute to catch up with my mate to double check all my gear for the trip. No pressure."

Of course, it took me nearly 15 minutes to reply and I had to call Mel completely out of my head as to what I should do. I decided to reply yes straight away before I chickend out.

And we went on from there.... me shtting my pants the whole time.

And so tonight, I'm chillin with a guy I've just met, but am completely smitten with.

Farmer Tom, I have no idea what you see in me, but please, please please let this work.
 
 
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choc_lammington
19 October 2011 @ 11:02 pm


Guess who's going to hang out with a certain cute farmer tomorrow?
Thats right ladies, moi.

 

Nervous as all hell.

 

How to just relax when there's no wine to help? :(

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choc_lammington
18 October 2011 @ 01:36 am


I may have met the man I will marry, get to have a farm and babies with.... That is all :)

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choc_lammington
07 October 2011 @ 06:46 pm


'The Others' is a damn fine movie. It's probably one of my favourite Nicole Kidman movies ever. It still freaks me out every time. It's a fantastic story, based on the Turning of the Screw I think. Has anyone ever read that book?

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choc_lammington
24 September 2011 @ 06:16 pm
How to talk to someone who is severely depressed?

My dad is seriously down in the dumps with grief and I'm not sure what to say to try and make him feel better. :(

Mum complains about it. I think he has every right to be depressed, but that maybe because I am a little too. I don't know.

The viewing is tomorrow. I'm really not sure how I'll go. I'm a little scared to see my grandma dead. It's not the lasting image of her I have in my mind.

I'm gonna be a mess at the funeral on Monday.... *sigh*
 
 
 
choc_lammington
22 September 2011 @ 12:48 am
Rant  


Im taking a moment to be pissed off. Thats allowed, right?
Don't you love how when you make a new set of friends and you get to know them, particularily because they crash at your place whenever they would come to the region to visit, you feel like you've finally done something right and you let yourself be vaunerable and give them every truthful part of you... ; You don't hold back from being the best friend and person you  can be...
Then what do you know? You move to their region and they hardly have time for you, in fact, they don't make you feel welcome or try to help you fit in. They don't bother to include you in activities and usually their excuse is "you live too far away" which I might add is a good 6 hours closer to them then I did before.
Oh yeah, but they have the audacity to tell you to stop posting about LOST on your facebook or they'll be 'forced' to hide my updates... which is hilarious, the fact that they have chosen to comment on my current LOST obsession and not take note about other updates that reccently revolves around the fact that my life is kinda shitty right now, you know, with my grandma dying and all!
I want to tell her to shove it! To stick her pussy complaint about freakin LOST updates up her ass when frankly, its just a tv show and she can hide my updates if she likes because its obvious she doesn't pay attention to them anyway.
Well, screw her and screw that bunch of people I called friends. They can all go jump in a firey mountain and die for all I currently care.
Right now, I just want a genuine, honest to God friend, who likes me for me and doesn't give a damn what I update my facebook about, to tell me that everything is gonna be alright; that Im gonna get through this and eventually be happy.

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choc_lammington
21 September 2011 @ 01:22 pm


Im rewatching LOST season 6. I forgot how radically awesome it is. Its making my week so much better.

 

Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers xxx

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choc_lammington
19 September 2011 @ 01:24 am

Grandma passed away at 11:40pm what is now, yesterday. She woke moments before, smiled, and went back to sleep. I miss her already...

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